are you? well if yes, good for you! as for me… i don’t know. Maybe yes, maybe not. I’m really quite unsure. Should i? but why? hmmm for me… i define happiness in many ways. like, knowing who you are and being at peace with yourself. Thats one. Waking up with a smile, jumping over every obstacle that you encounter each day, thanking God for all he has created and for all we have…then going to bed and having totally awesome dreams!. Having the freedom, health and opportunity to do great things for myself and others. And being able to do something for someone and not expect something in return. Are you happy? If not… what would make your life complete?

Just as i thought i already am. Ever since the ” tragedy ” ive been though last October… i’ve never been very much happy like i used to not until July 05, 2008. I am not gonna get into details anymore coz i really dont wanna start to have an ultimate ” emo corner ” category. Yeahh yeahh yeahh this is not me i know. You guys knew me for not taking every little thing seriously. The one who treats everything as a joke and crack things up. The one who answers your serious question in a seriously crazy way. Someone told me that people see me as a very strong person with a very strong personality but deep inside im as fragile as God knows what! Speaking of God… why would he give us ” something ” that actually gonna make us happy and will eventually cause us so much pain in the end? is it one of his ways to make a person a lot more stronger? is it a punishment coz of all the things we have done in the past? or he just mis-calculated? i really don’t know.

Should i surrender the extreme happiness that he had provided me to save myself from all the emotional damage that this happiness will might cause afterwards? Or should i let it be?

To make this post more emo… listen to this.